So..

I decided to start a blog, nobody will probably view it and I'm fine with that I just need to cast my thoughts into the infinite interwebs so I can be a little lighter not so much baggage you know? Essentially this blog will be a dialogue with myself a sort of diary and if by some chance someone stumbles upon well that's cool too. So let's see this is my introductory piece defining this blog, scratch that there will be no 'defining', this blog is my stream of concious thoughts, essentially an unorganised mess. So here is my story 17 years old and a socially awkward penguin crippled by self doubt and low self esteem. It seems so silly and angst ridden but alas it is true I really am, make one small criticism of me and it will plunge me deep into depression for the next 24 hours. I actually seem to think everybody dislikes me and I'm just an annoyance like a pest, these thoughts are self-realizing as well because then I over-compensate and it becomes true. Oh I also have OCD not the switch the light of twice and then do a hippity hop OCD but rather what I like to refer to as mental torture OCD. In essence I have paranoid thoughts that I'm a psychopath and or a myriad of other horrific things. I bet you you're thinking oh but what if they are... well apparently this form of OCD is quite common so rest assured still it tortures me especially before I found out what it was. I love creative writing am the laziest person on earth and I can't be fucked writing anymore so that's all goodnight noone